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I've been a blog addict for the past few weeks. I'm a member of the http://www.friendster.com/ community (hey if you have an account there, add me - benny_man18@yahoo.com). Posting blogs has been my new hobby these days. Yet posting only on http://www.friendster.com/ was somewhat, limiting. I mean I was not quite satisfied with my accomplishments there. Like any other human being, I wanted to go big time. Then the search was on.

I was searching for new blog sites where I can post my blogs and eventually be known across the globe. My blog, that is. I had come across the site http://www.multiply.com/. I was starting to post my old blogs there when a link i read below the page caught my attention. There were four links actually. I was scanning on which one to prefer. there was one which I started to like when it said a the end of the page that it's only good for a 30 day trial. Awww, too sad. Finally, it hit me. I'll choose http://www.blogger.com/.

And so I did. I hope this isn't gonna be a 30 day trial too or I'm gonna be crazy. This will make a good stepping stone (I think!). A good start for novice writers like me. This will be my key to success. Thanks Blogger! (Sounds like an advertisement, doesn't it?).

Anyway, from this day on, I'll be posting everything that's every thought in my mind blog worthy. This is just the start. And this... This will be a lot of fun!

Wasted Talent

Now, where should I start?

Ever wonder why the Philippines is still a developing country? I bet you don't because you don't care.

The Philippines has a lot of homegrown talents. I can prove this because in my old highschool alone, many hidden yet wickedly awesome talents were developed. As we enter the college life, it should be expected that in any way, anyhow, these talents are to be refined. And as we leave that chapter in life, we're already geared up for a new one.

In our younger years, some of us may have dreamt to be a pilot someday, or a doctor, a police officer, an attorney, an engineer or any other proffession. These dreamers might have been the best in their field if it weren't for the love of money. Why? Take a look at the current exchange rate: Php 47.71= $1.00. If I worked abroad and earn $10.00 an hour for 8 hours, 6 days a week for, say, 6 months, that would be how much? And if we convert that to the Philippine currency, it would be Php549,619.2. Isn't that sumptuous. These dreamers are lead away from their heart's desires because of that fact. What do they do? For easy or maybe the easiest access to it is to become a nurse. It's not because they want it, it is because they have no other choice. They're parents drive them to do it so that they may be released from the chains of poverty. Yet, not only the average kids do it, also the above average kids do it, too.

I had a friend who really shocked me of her sudden decision, let me change that-- her parents' decision. She shifted from being an Industrial Engineering student to a nursing student. I asked her why she didn't fight for her true love, she said, "My parents won't let me continue if I don't follow them". Isn't that nice, is it?

My other very intelligent friend had other things in mind. I said to him, "Don't tell me you're gonna take up nursing." He replied, "Yuck! Hell no!" Of course. As expected from a very intillectual child. He was sort of an inspiration to some. He's a good leader - so confident, so vocal. Although he does silly things sometimes.

I had very intelligent friends who took up nursing. I was kinda devastated when I learned that. Well, it's they're decision. Life is all about decision, right? No! Life is about playing the game you love. It's about having fun. It's about winning and losing. Life is not about money or possesions. It has been written: We should do something because we love it not because of money. Yet here we are, shadowed by the brightness of money.

The Philippines lacks these talents. She needs these in order to be developed. Yet, poverty hinders her from having that.

For me, nursing is what I called the no-other-choice course. I totally hate that course. It's not that I hate the students, it's because this diverts the real potential of our dear fellowmen to something other that doing what they love. Yes, some of them have developed a certain degree of love for this course, but that ain't enough. I bet when they get old, they'd have a crash course.

Confusion

Have you read my past blogs? They're quite confusing, right? I mean my ideas aren't really organized. I type the first things that come in my mind. And most of the time, if not always, they're completely out of synch. The grammar is also preposterous. And the syntax, questionable. I'm not quite THE WRITER yet, but I'm close, I think.

I criticize people who don't know their english. I even laugh at it. I call my closest friends and we laugh together about it. I know I've hurt them without their knowledge but I can't help it. I know what you're thinking, "Why shouldn't I stop?" I've tried it a lot of times but I just couldn't help it. I'm doing my best, you know. I'm taking baby steps in changing this very nasty attitude of mine. I, for one, don't know my english. I think very fluent english and yet I can't express it. I don't freaking know the reason why!

My second paragraph sounds funny, right? Most of the sentences end in "it". Sound like a poem, huh? Well, that's me- a I-wanna-be-a-very-good-writer-soon character. What should I do to enhance this talent? I don't even know if this is my talent. Umm, I read books-novels (my favorite), I play a lot of sports, and I eat numbers. I really don't have a talent that stands out yet. Someone out there might wanna help. I really would be grateful if someone out there would be so kind to help me. I need it so bad. I need it because I want to improve myself. I need it because i'm a bit confused. Help me out you guys.

Just a Breeze

It is said that the most fun things happen in just a snap while boring ones go on forever. This is indeed true. When you don't have anything to do, the clock walks like a snail and yet when you're doing things that really blows you away it seems that one day is not enough. Summer time, for instance, is a period wherein one winds down and relax. In fact, two months of total relaxation is not enough to get all worries gained from ten moths of school pressure. Anyway, summer will still be long for me though.
All I wanted was a sweet grade of 3.0 and yet I was deprived to have that. And here I am taking summer classes. That's why I said that I'd have a very long summer period, and it ain't a break. It's really very frustrating to be a failure. Most of all, it sucks when you fall short of your own expectations. I've learned a new lesson: Don't expect too much from yourself, rather, let yourself do the unexpected.
Coming from a prestigious high school made me think I'm invincible. Whatever challenge comes my way, I can it handle thoroughly. Although it couldn't be perfect, I still can do it anyway. But that mentality brought me down. I was being ridiculous -- a thought that came to me very recently. How I wish I could turn back time and change that mentality.
Bad habits die hard as they say and they're right. It's so hard to change the fact that I am very stubborn. I know that i can't do it but here I am still thinking that i could.
Well, getting back to further issues. Physics is a sick subject. I'm sorry to say that. I failed! I can't accept that reality. Every time I'm alone and think of me being a failure makes me sick. Makes me wanna kick someone's butt. I'm just ashamed of myself. Ashamed of my friends. Ashamed of my family. Now, I've become a burden. But all these will just pass as fast as how it came. I can do this! It'll be just a breeze.

Nature Calls

I have seen the documentary of the famous AL GORE. I was struck by the fact that most, if not all, people in the world don't care about the earth. There was this clip about a certain ice berg somewhere here on earth (i completely forgot the places) that was supposed to be intact in the next 10, 10 000 years (i also forgot the figures but its somewhere there). I was completely flabbergasted when the scientists, who said the things i mentioned above, reported that in a period of over thirty days, the ice beg melted (then again, i forgot the area (in sq. m) that melted).

There were so many unbelievable clips, videos, figures, and predictions in that documentation. Al Gore travelled the whole world to preach this sad fact. Today, many people are doing something to change this dismal series of events. Companies are helping to end this crisis by reducing the pollutants that they produce. The local people are now recycling and minimizing the burning of non-biodegradable trash.

We are slowly going back to the old earth we had. Slowly... Very slowly but surely.

A very intelligent teacher of mine talks of certain events that may affect my life, his life, and all people's lives. He once criticized the media for talking about nonsense things such as politics.
Politics really has become nonsense. It has been this and that ever since the Marcos regime ended. The blame of who has done wrong has never ended. C'mon! Marcos died a million years ago. Shouldn't everything be back on track again by now? Anyway, we can never change the fact that until a very good and loving man becomes the leader of the whole country this place will still be the same as ever.

That teacher said that for a change the media must talk about what's happening on earth. The media is a very powerful influence. The can encourage the people to reduce, reuse, and recycle. The can be a very big help if they only had their priorities right.

Well, in my case, I'm doing my best. In this little article, I hope that you guys out there may be encouraged. And help me spread the word to the world that we must reduce, reuse, and recycle. Think about the future. Think about our future family. Think about our future kids. It still may be a fantasy but it's just around the corner.