Confusion

Have you read my past blogs? They're quite confusing, right? I mean my ideas aren't really organized. I type the first things that come in my mind. And most of the time, if not always, they're completely out of synch. The grammar is also preposterous. And the syntax, questionable. I'm not quite THE WRITER yet, but I'm close, I think.

I criticize people who don't know their english. I even laugh at it. I call my closest friends and we laugh together about it. I know I've hurt them without their knowledge but I can't help it. I know what you're thinking, "Why shouldn't I stop?" I've tried it a lot of times but I just couldn't help it. I'm doing my best, you know. I'm taking baby steps in changing this very nasty attitude of mine. I, for one, don't know my english. I think very fluent english and yet I can't express it. I don't freaking know the reason why!

My second paragraph sounds funny, right? Most of the sentences end in "it". Sound like a poem, huh? Well, that's me- a I-wanna-be-a-very-good-writer-soon character. What should I do to enhance this talent? I don't even know if this is my talent. Umm, I read books-novels (my favorite), I play a lot of sports, and I eat numbers. I really don't have a talent that stands out yet. Someone out there might wanna help. I really would be grateful if someone out there would be so kind to help me. I need it so bad. I need it because I want to improve myself. I need it because i'm a bit confused. Help me out you guys.