It is said that the most fun things happen in just a snap while boring ones go on forever. This is indeed true. When you don't have anything to do, the clock walks like a snail and yet when you're doing things that really blows you away it seems that one day is not enough. Summer time, for instance, is a period wherein one winds down and relax. In fact, two months of total relaxation is not enough to get all worries gained from ten moths of school pressure. Anyway, summer will still be long for me though.
All I wanted was a sweet grade of 3.0 and yet I was deprived to have that. And here I am taking summer classes. That's why I said that I'd have a very long summer period, and it ain't a break. It's really very frustrating to be a failure. Most of all, it sucks when you fall short of your own expectations. I've learned a new lesson: Don't expect too much from yourself, rather, let yourself do the unexpected.
Coming from a prestigious high school made me think I'm invincible. Whatever challenge comes my way, I can it handle thoroughly. Although it couldn't be perfect, I still can do it anyway. But that mentality brought me down. I was being ridiculous -- a thought that came to me very recently. How I wish I could turn back time and change that mentality.
Bad habits die hard as they say and they're right. It's so hard to change the fact that I am very stubborn. I know that i can't do it but here I am still thinking that i could.
Well, getting back to further issues. Physics is a sick subject. I'm sorry to say that. I failed! I can't accept that reality. Every time I'm alone and think of me being a failure makes me sick. Makes me wanna kick someone's butt. I'm just ashamed of myself. Ashamed of my friends. Ashamed of my family. Now, I've become a burden. But all these will just pass as fast as how it came. I can do this! It'll be just a breeze.
All I wanted was a sweet grade of 3.0 and yet I was deprived to have that. And here I am taking summer classes. That's why I said that I'd have a very long summer period, and it ain't a break. It's really very frustrating to be a failure. Most of all, it sucks when you fall short of your own expectations. I've learned a new lesson: Don't expect too much from yourself, rather, let yourself do the unexpected.
Coming from a prestigious high school made me think I'm invincible. Whatever challenge comes my way, I can it handle thoroughly. Although it couldn't be perfect, I still can do it anyway. But that mentality brought me down. I was being ridiculous -- a thought that came to me very recently. How I wish I could turn back time and change that mentality.
Bad habits die hard as they say and they're right. It's so hard to change the fact that I am very stubborn. I know that i can't do it but here I am still thinking that i could.
Well, getting back to further issues. Physics is a sick subject. I'm sorry to say that. I failed! I can't accept that reality. Every time I'm alone and think of me being a failure makes me sick. Makes me wanna kick someone's butt. I'm just ashamed of myself. Ashamed of my friends. Ashamed of my family. Now, I've become a burden. But all these will just pass as fast as how it came. I can do this! It'll be just a breeze.
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